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TO MY LITTLE ONE

UNTIL TODAY I ONLY SAW YOU IN MY DREAMS
NOW YOU ARE LYING BESIDE ME
IT DOESN'T SEEM POSSIBLE SOMEHOW
UNTIL TODAY I DREAMED YOUR FACE
YOUR EYES, YOUR HAIR
EVEN YOUR SEX
I DREAMED ALOT OF DREAMS FOR YOU
MY LITTLE ONE
HOW YOU WOULD FEEL, ACT
EVEN YOUR SMILE
I VISIONED YOU DANCING ON A CLOUD
CLIMBING A TREE
PLAYING WITH DOLLS
BUT AS YOU LAY HERE BESIDE ME NOW
I KNOW YOUR FACE, YOUR EYES
THE COLOR OF YOUR HAIR
NOW, OUTSIDE MY WOMB YOU'RE DIFFERENT
YOU'RE A LIVING, BREATHING PERSON
YOU'RE NOT A DREAM
I LIVED THRU YOU FOR NINE MONTHS MY LITTLE ONE
AS YOU LIVED THRU ME
OUR LIVES ENTERTWINED
WE SHARED THE SAME SPACE TOGETHER
OUR BODIES INTERMIXING
OUR HEART BEATING IN RHYTHM
I WAS YOU AND YOU WERE ME IN A WAY
YET WE HAD DIFFERENT HEARTS
DIFFERENT SOULS
I HAD THE RIGHT TO DREAM YOUR DREAMS THEN
WE SHARED SO MUCH MY LITTLE ONE
WE WERE ONE
LYING HERE NOW I CAN FEEL YOUR WARMTH
AS YOU MUST HAVE FELT MINE
FOR SUCH A LONG, SHORT TIME
I FEEL A SORT OF SADNESS MY LITTLE ONE
NOT THAT I CAN FULLY UNDERSTAND IT
THIS SAD, JOY FEELING
I WANTED SO MUCH TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS
I WANTED TO CRADLE YOU CLOSE
BUT NOW AS YOU LIE SLEEPING IN MY ARMS
I MISS YOU IN MY BELLY
IT FEELS EMPTY, QUIET
PHYSICALLY WE'LL NEVER BE THAT CLOSE AGAIN
WE SHARED SOMETHING VERY SPECIAL
I MISS IT
YOU'RE ONLY A FEW HOURS OLD LITTLE ONE
YET YOU SEEM TO HAVE GROWN
OR MAYBE THE CHANGE IS IN ME
ONLY A FEW MINUTES HAVE PASSED
YOU ARE STILL BESIDE ME, STILL ASLEEP
I KNOW I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MORE NOW
I DIDN'T THINK IT WAS POSSIBLE
I LIVED YOU SO MUCH THEN
WHAT'S MORE SURPRISING IS I RESPECT YOU
AS TINY AS YOU ARE
YOU'RE YOUR OWN PERSON
I REALIZE YOUR'RE NOT AN EXTENSION OF ME
YOUR PURPOSE IS NOT TO CONTINUE MY LIFE
IT'S TO START YOUR OWN
YOU MAY BE WITH ME FOR QUITE SOMETIME
BUT YOU DON'T BELONG TO ME
YOU BELONG TO YOURSELF
I'M GOING TO MAKE YOU A SOLEMN PROMISE
ON THIS DAY OF YOUR BIRTH
WITH GOD'S HELP, I'LL KEEP IT
EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE ONLY A FEW HOURS OLD
I'M SETTING YOU FREE
THOUGH I NEVER HAD THE RIGHT TO ENSLAVE YOU
YOU EARNED YOUR FREEDOM WHEN YOU LEFT MY BODY
YOUR THOUGHTS SHOULD BE YOUR OWN
NOT MINE
YOU'RE FREE FROM MY IDEAS, MY PREJUDGICES
I WON'T PRESS THEM ON YOU
YOU'VE A RIGHT TO FORM YOUR OWN
I'LL TRY TO GUIDE YOU THE BEST I CAN
BY GIVING YOU BOTH SIDES
NOT JUST MY SIDE
YOU MAY NOT CHOOSE THE SAME PATHS I WOULD
BUT THEN, MY LITTLE ONE
YOU'RE NOT ME
YOU'LL NEVER BE FREE OF MY LOVE AND CONCERN
THAT WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU
NO MATTER WHAT YOU DECIDE
I'LL ALWAYS STAND BESIDE YOU
WHEN YOU NEED ME
IF YOU WANT ME THERE
IF WE DISAGREE IT WON'T CHANGE MY LOVE
I'LL RESPECT YOU'RE IDEAS
BECAUSE I RESPECT YOU
YOU'RE FREE TO LIVE YOUR OWN LIFE
I'LL HOUSE YOUR BODY
BUT NEVER YOUR SOUL
I'LL MAKE THESE PROMISES NOT BECAUSE I LOVE YOU
THOUGH I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH
BUT BECAUSE THEY ARE RIGHTFULLY YOURS
I ONLY ASK ONE THING OF YOU MY LITTLE ONE
DON'T THANK ME FOR BEING YOUR PARENT
THAT WAS MY DECISION, NOT YOURS
IT'S UP TO ME TO THANK THE LORD
FOR BRINGING YOU TO ME

TO MICHELE CRAMER FROM MOM
DECEMBER 29, 1976